Quick break away from stress

Okay, so I'm in La Union now, enjoying the beach and relearning my first loved sport -surfing. It's been awhile, probably almost a year now since I last surfed. I missed this. My encounter with the beach to surf makes me forget things, stress, work and emotional stress in particular.

Why stressed at worked? There's still lots of ongoing changes at work; new products, services, projects, and even management. It's a challenge indeed but I'm coping. This is just a small part of what's happening to me anyway.

Emotional stress? Yes. The big part actually. It's very difficult that I know I'm inlove. I sometimes end up obsessed. Really! I don't want to, but it happened anyway. Obsessed how? I stalk facebook, I wait for texts, etc. What can I do, it just happens and I hate it. It fucks my mind and once I don't get what I want, I end up hating myself. Whatever.

I am enjoying my stay here in Elyu, but at times were not at the beach, I go back to the sadness I feel.

Whew. I still hope that after this post, I'd feel alot better. Bye!

The feeling of emptiness

Hola! It's been awhile. Not sure why I'm here again but yeah, I just feel like I need to do this; to put into writing what I currently feel.

First, I would like to apologize to my team. I am currently not okay now, so hopefully after this I'm back to my usual self. It's been two hours since I came in but I haven't accomplished anything productive yet.

Second, I would like to apologize to myself :) I have been acting very strange lately; well, for the past months. I'm 30 and lonely. LOL. Kidding aside, I am not very sure what will it become of me in the next years. I want to go out of country, alone. Away from the people I know and the people who knows me. I want to start anew, perhaps. Somethings not okay with me and I am not even sure if I'm going to find out what it is. Geez. Anyway, I will be okay. I always am.

Third, I would like to apologize to the rest of the people surrounding me. I love you all, and I miss you all. I apologize because even though from within me I know I love you, I do not show it; and I'm not sure if you feel it.

Finally, to you who can read this, if you feel like something's wrong with me, my attitude, my being, please tell me. I want to stop believing that I am doing okay when in fact I am not. Just tell me, please?