The feeling of emptiness

Hola! It's been awhile. Not sure why I'm here again but yeah, I just feel like I need to do this; to put into writing what I currently feel.

First, I would like to apologize to my team. I am currently not okay now, so hopefully after this I'm back to my usual self. It's been two hours since I came in but I haven't accomplished anything productive yet.

Second, I would like to apologize to myself :) I have been acting very strange lately; well, for the past months. I'm 30 and lonely. LOL. Kidding aside, I am not very sure what will it become of me in the next years. I want to go out of country, alone. Away from the people I know and the people who knows me. I want to start anew, perhaps. Somethings not okay with me and I am not even sure if I'm going to find out what it is. Geez. Anyway, I will be okay. I always am.

Third, I would like to apologize to the rest of the people surrounding me. I love you all, and I miss you all. I apologize because even though from within me I know I love you, I do not show it; and I'm not sure if you feel it.

Finally, to you who can read this, if you feel like something's wrong with me, my attitude, my being, please tell me. I want to stop believing that I am doing okay when in fact I am not. Just tell me, please?